This is the song from one of my favorite artists, The Carpenters. :)
I really likes their songs, and the Karen's voice.
makes me cry but also smile.. :)
The hardest thing I've ever done
Is keep believing
There's someone in this crazy world
The way that people come and go
Thru temporary lives
My chance could come and I might never know
I used to say "No promises,
Let's keep it simple"
But freedom only helps you say
It took a while for me to learn
That nothin' comes for free
The price I've paid is high enough for me
I know I need to be in love
I know I've wasted too much time
I know I ask perfection of
A quite imperfect world
And fool enough to think that's
What I'll find
So here I am with pockets full
Of good intentions
But none of them will comfort me
I'm wide awake at four a.m.
Without a friend in sight
Hanging on a hope but I'm alright
'Anne,The Red Hair' (2009)
in the sunny morning, i see the birds flying freely and singing cheerfully.
i looked up and it's so amazing, the color of the blue sky and the cotton white clouds was soo matched together with their appearance.
sometimes they are flying for finding their friends, catched up their friends, or just waiting on the branches.
most of them is a pigeons or sparrows, and i named them "the urban birds".because they're easy to see in the urban city. :)
anyway, while i (someow) mezmerized about their existance, i recognizing something.
i see another birds beside "the urban birds",they aren't pigeon or sparrow, and they has a feather with a metalic colors. i can only see just 3 of them, and 2 of them is same colors.
let me explain to you about them.
first, the 2 birds with the same colors. They're looking cheer and energic with the metalic orange in their chest and wings. they're always together.
the second is, just a single green bird. this bird just only stayed on the branches, trying to looking his/her "match" but doesn't moving from his/her position.
this scene is interesting to me, because in the human's world, this thing is something that we handle.
to living in this urban society, we put the individual needs first. when you come to the new society, you'll be adapt to the loneliness, because nobody will be helping you. they're too busy for they stuff, and you must accept it. It's all about 'individual' and 'Self-Fulfilling Prophecy'.
back to the topic, these 3 birds may representative the 'individu' who struggled in the society:peer, family, etc.
We maybe like the orange bird who have our "match",
We maybe like the green bird who doesn't have our "match" yet and still looking forward to it.
actually, i want to talk more but now, let's just "pause" and continuing in another day.. ;)
It's So hard to be myself and to concern the others.
First, i'm totally narcisstic freak girl who just fantasize and Act Bravely only in my mind.
For the long time, i know i am such a coward to the other's and even for myself's sake.
..But even i'm that worst,
i still believe (that) i can have a Hope...
'bohemian dreamer' (2009)
Hi, there.. this blog will be used for my expressions about my current daily life, it's maybe from the local or international's newspaper's issues, or even from the results of my Imagination world. :)
Sorry to say, but maybe, in the future, i will be use Indonesian, or Japanese. A half is proud that i can use more than a one languages, but another half is i don't think my language's skill is a good.. :'(
it's because i'm too long trap in my "world"!! Oh no..
This is the first blog to me that i can arrange the design and everything. untill now, i'm still confuse to using this blog's design's options.
So, Let's start this blog..! Good Night.. :)